Push-pull is a neurodivergent adventure in writing that explores the tensions and in-betweenness of navigating my dual diagnoses of autism spectrum disorder (ASD) and attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD) across the intertwined practices of art, writing and research. In my practice(s) as a visual artist, researcher, lecturer (and everything in-between), my writing is my art practice and my art practice is my writing. Both are also my research exploring art and/as language. In searching for a visual and other language, my work often takes hybrid forms traversing the visual, textual, and material registers of language. But, even in these new spaces I still do not quite fit. Undertaken over a period of four weeks as a durational writing practice, I will share the in-between hybrid forms of writing and their slippages that emerge performatively from the collisions and meta-narratives I encounter along the way, informing an experimental text produced for the Dx and Writing website. I hope to show the possibilities of my diagnoses, whereby not fitting in becomes fertile ground for new forms of writing practice.